One of the Pages from my Jot

I don’t remember when this was written. My notepad has been lying on the table for almost months after my last jot. A wake recap reminds me of writing this note during one of the meetings. I was there but may be my mind wasn’t there. “If loving someone hurts, try otherwise. Start loving yourself. When was the last time you greeted yourself in the morning feeling grateful for waking up? When was the last time you consoled yourself on doing bad at your job? When was the last time you patted yourself for the tiring day? We start counting our tears than blessings. We have our laughing days, smiling days and every day normal days. Then there is that one to two moments of tiring days. What do we do during those days? You start to blame the system, blame other party, blame your situations, blame your luck and finally and mostly you start blaming yourself. You blame yourself for the bad decisions, for not being good enough, for not saying enough while you forget being you is enough. A relationship breaks and you blame yourself for not being good enough. If you have given every piece of your heart into this relation and if it still breaks, don’t blame yourself; just know that some things and people are not meant for us. In the process of impressing others we have forgotten to love ourselves, we dress for others….” And I guess the meeting came to an end or my thoughts exhausted reaching that line.

As I flip through those pages I feel like I was consoling myself and today as I see this piece I feel like I am being consoled by myself. I feel better for walking away, I feel heard for speaking up, I learned from the mistakes and every day and every moment I start to appreciate and love myself more. Inspirational quotes and motivational speeches can never compare to the experiences you have felt. I think it is okay to learn from your own mistakes, pains and decisions. It is okay to feel the pain now but I hope you do not forget to love yourself a little more. First start loving yourself selflessly and selflessly love flows to others. Do not take yourself for granted. This is my story from pages of my stories.